Like at all. Usually when I eat at maintenance or binge I hate myself and feel disgusting, want to die, the usual. But the past five days I've been eating around 2000 (what I generally consider "binging", though not as bad as some of my older binges), and I just. can't. care. Like I can't be bothered to. I'm so exhausted from caring so much, that today I felt like eating cheese and bread, and just did it, and didn't even feel sorry for it. I know this isn't getting me any closer to my goals. I know it's just making me complacent, but it's honestly been kind of peaceful. Like there's no voice screaming at me to get back on track...like I'll get to it when I get to it. I'm almost wondering if this is a good thing? Maybe I'll stop caring about food so much and be able to restrict after taking this breather.